15/11
aaaaaaaaaaaaa shadow joker ep hihihihihi. i am VERY HAPPY
also: I TOLD YOU IT MUST HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE SCAR
11/11
idk everything feels so unreal. i can't belive i still have school tomorror.
no one loves me and i will have to live alone forever
1/11
mmmmmmmmmm yes time for badge.
i'm in that mood where i litterally hates everything and everyone. everythings exist solely to annoy and anger me.
after skitzo and the badge i might feel a bit better
30/10
i thought today is a good day earlier. drew some fanarts but now i just fell sick. idk why. i usually feel sick lately
26/10
super tired but let's just hope that tcc will revive me. because i'mma rewatch.
also, i put some of my blood into the plane i was making. just because i can.
mmmmmm
want to rewatch and edit but also want to research mmmmmmmmmm. life is full of impossible choices
23/10
i have said it before and i will say it again. i fucking hate all tcc fandom. yes i have just read another youtube comment risking my mental health state and i am mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm very uncomfy. yet too sad to be angry. this is the reason i don't look up tcc tags anywhere. fucking retards
21/10
exactly 1 more week to finish this stuff hgnnnnnnnnnnnnn
anyway, who calls ppl in their early 20s men and woman? that's fucking old and you're just being rude. it sounds weird
20/10
still haven't homework so yah i'm in continuous fear but still. precure
"dream repeatedly about someone means we're thinking a lot about that person, consiouly or subconciously" fyi i have dreamt about tcc for 3 time haha. yes. i love
19/10
18/10 ten more days till i have to submit my fucking homeworks. ahhhhh better get started on sth tomorrow.
anyway. hot blooded and arrogant. don't you think yuji would fight kumo like haneru? nah haha seriously doubt it. only haneru knows no boundaries, i'm sure yuji would just feel annoy and act tough on him at first but he won't go straight up fighting like haneru does since he's a nice kid who respect adults anyway.
16/10
i blog first incase i don't get up at 5 in the morning tomorrow.
and yes. now i'm going offline.
i feel so uncomfy with my hair wet. gonna dry it. it's long and it's cold when it's wet.
bought new markers to cheer self up. hmmmmmm
also, i don't like steven universe anymore now. it makes me feel uneasy
14/10
somehow i spent the whole night doing mood board for sons and now i'm going to bed. didn't edit. welp. see ya
13/10
somehow i always sleep at night now hmmm. like right after i got home from school. i was going to rewatch all over again but it's 4am now so, i'll try my best anyway. time to edit the hard core babes.
monday. ah yes. i love how the universe constantly reminds me that i have no reason to live and i am hollow. love it
i cut
9/10
hello. i am here. tonight is a rare night i have like 6 hours online haha. gonna edit. gonna rewatch. gonna see new shits . gonna make husbando album. gonna make mood boards for sons (ocs not hiroto). gonna youtube. gonna everything!!!!!!!!
(insert pic of burning elmo)
also why ppl talk a lot on kanon's page
7/10
sup. i'm here. i'm good. rather stable but still have loads of fucking homeworks. yes. procastinating
hey. good news is i didn't cut
6/10
still feels nothing. i don't know. i wrote a lot on my phone and not gonna write it again. just empty
guess i'm gonna edit. not because of pleasure anymore
yes this is death
hello i want death
this is death
my chest hurts
look somebody edit the wiki
i'm trembling
today has been a decent bad day. i lifted my mood a bit by escaping reality but then tcc hits me and even when i'm asleep my brain produce really sad dream. not necessarily bad but just sad
like today
i knew this gonna happen
i srsly can't think of anything but dead right now
welp. let tcc bless it last on my pitiful soul
4/10
here. again.
oops haha would you look at that. i messed up my life some more. good time to die
dear @tcc i solely live today for your sake. you and only you kept me alive today. after tomorrow nothing matters anymore. i want death i am litterally trembling in fear of reality. thanks for keeping me today and tomorrow i guess. let us see that if the world is really worth living in. yes i will die if i confirm everybody hates me tomorrow
3/10
hello. everybody hates me. i will try to kill myself on tuesday since i have to watch last ep of tcc as my final blessing. jk, maybe i won't die. i just want to get hospitalize and stay there for a time. i want to get treatment for my mentally ill self and probably don't have any other way of doing so. also i'm pretty sure everybody hates me, not like i even like them at all but now there is no bond between me and life anymore, i can finally move on. i want to cut. so maybe i'll swallow some pills or cut. pills sounds better thou.
i awake in the middle of my sleep when reality drop on me so bad i can't even sleep anymore. i want death.
anyway, if i somehow manage to die. wiki will be one of the thing i regret. thanks. but bye. ily.
k
alright. i managed to calm a bit down. i'm good now but will be easily trigered. ugh. emotion hell.
gonna paste what i was writting here
looks like i copied nothing. might as well as killing myself to find peace. bye
1/10
you know, if i stay for another year, i'll have to think of a new way to new blog post
also i just woke up. hello. time to homework
i found out i can be on the wikia mobile page without the app and i need a whole lot more editting to make this a proper wikia
29/9
i forgot how much i love ryugel and gandales. i11 go galaxy is the best part in go
also i drew more yuji and sota dou. i'm in really good mood right now. i'm gonna add vids.
btw i'm gonna add vids from youtube here today. since the snoty youtube users decided to ignore me, i'll just have to check on my vids regularly to see if they're still working. after all, it's not even their vids, they're just cut offs from the original
28/9
ahhhhh i love gold and silver's "normal" expression beside arrogant hahahaha they're precious i love
also living up to his protagonist name. haneru has quite a lot of great quotes i'd like to write down to remember
HUHUHUHUHHHUHUHH
NEW EP!!!!!!
HUHUHUHUHU ANOTHER WEEK. ANOTHER EP. I DIDN'T FUCKING EDIT MUCH HERE THIS WEEK BUT I CAN ASSURE YOU I WON'T MISS A DAY
but also, it's ep 49
do you know what this means?
next ep will be the end
the only blessing this world ever gonna get is finally ending
how will i stay myself as i am right now? how will i survive life
you don't know how much i have become more and more disattached to real life in order to survive. i finally learnt the key. it's to always have your mind wanders if it cames to sth you didn't like, just ignore it as much as possible.
but how can i do that without virtual life now?
of course i will be rewatching tcc again again and again many many times trying to relive the glorious day
but just
i feel so empty
i know it las…
27/9
yah sorry i have been venting on tumblr lately. my plans for today is more edit + adobe illustrator. ugh
also i still haven't figured out why my heart seems to hurts whenever i'm online even though i have nothing to be excited about.
one more thing: less than 24 hours till rave party. friendly reminder
26/9
mmmmmmmmmmmmm things won't be so bad if i don't have to do my homework hmmmmm :/
hello i am here again. you could say i'm pretty stable now. monday shouldn't be too far. yes. i can hang in here for love. blessing is near
25/9
ah yes. another day. another disappointment. the day was not as good as i thought it would be but at least it was decent. also i'm still very alone here on wiki
24/9
haha i'm here. what a freat nap i have had. what a great day in front of me. and tonight my lovely tcc wiki, we shall celebrate. by rewatch!!! oh yes fucking finally!!! let us rejoyce this day! let us forget that i must submit my fucking bad logo by mon day on adobe illustrator and i don't know shit about that. let's just rewatch because i love
i'm so dead
i want to rewatch and edit huhuhuhu
but homeowrks huhuhu
life is getting in my way of having a time of mylife
i'm so dead
22/9
status update: tired, sad and very gay
how can i even be this sad while there is a whole other week in front of me before next ep. tbh sometimes i just want to get these things over with and kill myself. i don't even feel like i should be living. my life is going nowhere and i just want someone to love me. i'm very needy.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL HYPE EVEN THOUGH IDK WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN
HUHUHUHUHU I PREPARED TISSUES THIS TIME
PRAY
I LACK 1 HOUR OF SLEEP BUT NVM. I HAVE SURVIVE TOO MUCH TO GIVE UP NOW
I LOVE
IT'S BUFFERING HHIHIHIHIHIHIHI
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA15:45, September 21, 2015 (UTC)
20/9
gonna lay low tonight. maybe only edit otsuru because i still have homeowrks that need to be done and submit by tomorrow. i didn't do it earlier because i was procasinating by drawing alia top 5 in steam punk (jfc) for my school manga gallery.
also. reminder that tomorrow is new ep day. tcc better give me sth nice since i didn't cut last week-yes it's a big deal, very important. give me souls.
19/9
yay! i'm admin :) and bureaucrat hihihi
i had a sense about wiki so i came to check. i was so right.
18/9 tru
tfw your gammar sucks so bad ppl have to re edit you
thanks friend. sorry for terrible english
16/9
i'm so trired today and if it's not for wiki i would have gone to bed already. but i am a girl of my words, i'll edit tribe chrome dome and maybe cut out some vids
15/9
what a nice day off. living in anxiety of things i haven't done and will likely to face but still better than actually facing it i suppose.
anyway, i had a dream about tcc yesterday. it was great hihihi. although it makes almost no sense but you know how dreams are, i'm just glad i dreamt about tcc. it's a spin-off about the sub characters or sth but you still see a bit of the main ppl and appearally they're on vaction at a beach. again, it makes no sense. idk it started its first ep like 5 eps away from the actual ending of tcc-which is probably now :P. idk dreams are messed up, maybe i was just expecting a second season. that is, if there will be one-which i seriously doubt. i myself won't make one tbh. probably from one of those few site…
vent ep 47
i tried to reduce my venting as much as possible you know. that's why i create 2 blog post. idk why it's not like any one is here but still..
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE
we all know what today is don't we. ladies and gentleman...
it's monday.
i'm loading the new ep
I CAN'T
i tried mybest to keep calm but just thinking about the name fucking jesus christ
YES
LET US ENJOY THIS BLISSFUL MOMENT
I'M LOADING...
jfc help
i am so not ok. wtf is this schedule. i'm having a headache just looking at it jfc help. my head hurts. help. it's spinning. i can not belive next week will be even harder h e l p